One of the most stressful days of my life

I had my first auditions in Antwerp and I think it was one of the most stressful days of my life. First there was a music theory which was divided into two parts. There was a listening part where you had to write melodies that were played, recognise intervals, say wether a chord or scale is major/minor (+form). The second part was singing one of the pieces one was supposed to prepare at home. I had gotten the pieces only two days earlier and I wasn't ready at all. That is why I couldn't get a single note of my throat. It might have been one of the worst moments of my life.

The second part was where I played infront if a jury, pieces I prepared on the percussions. In total I played 4 pieces: Whoopie (B. Quartier) on the marimba, the first etude of the 'Douze études pour Caisse-Claire' (J. Delécluse) on the snare drum, etude number 15 (R. Hochrainer) on the timpani and Solo #7 (R. Latham) on the drums. Two pieces I played practically without mistakes (marimba and drum piece) and the first two I played my hands were literally shacking so I made small mistakes here and there. Also when I'm stressed I put too much pressure on the sticks and the sounds isn't as good as it should be. The jury was expressionless so it was hard to know wether what I was playing was good or not. I'll just have to wait for the results and maybe do the theory part eventually again.